I gave up making New Year’s resolutions years ago. Why put all that pressure on yourself? But I have been intrigued by the new trend of choosing a single focus word for the year. A word that sums up what you desire most.
It sounds easy – choose a word. And there are some awesome, inspiring words to pick from – laugh, content, peace – all great words! But it took some digging and self-reflection to find my word: LET.
As a Type A-control-everything-around-me kinda of person, this is HUGE. So now it’s time to LET things be, LET things happen, LET some things go, LET the universe unfold the way it is meant to, LET my emotions flow at will. I could have chosen the word allow, but it has a controlling edge to it, so I think LET is the right choice.
I considered the words peace or content but I don’t want to sit idle this year either. I want to continue striving for my dreams, growing and working towards bettering myself. But I don’t always have to try so hard to make those things happen. I can work hard and have goals, but also let things unfold the way they are meant to unfold.
I can stop carrying anger and hurt and be okay with that. I can let go of all that no longer serves me. I will let in the things that make me happy and not worry about what other people think. I will write my book without knowing where it will lead, I will practice my terrible yoga and further my reiki skills. I will let myself be me.
I will step back and watch my son spread his wings and become the man he is destined to be. I can let this happen instead of hanging on for dear life. Losing him has become a fear after losing our daughter Katie. But now I will change my thoughts and I will let him live and thrive his own way.
Life isn’t meant to be easy, but it isn’t meant to be a constant struggle of what ought to be. This year I will let the universe show me my path instead of always doing what I think I should. This year I will let myself follow my heart, even though I may not have the next 67 steps laid out in front of me. This year, I will let things go and I will let myself be me.